Yoga is about clearing away whatever is in us that prevents our living in the most full and whole way. With yoga, we become aware of how and where we are restricted — in body, mind, and heart — and how gradually to open and release these blockages. As these blockages are cleared, our energy is freed. We start to feel more harmonious, more at one with ourselves. Our lives begin to flow — or we begin to flow more in our lives.
~ Cybele Tomlinson
I never thought I would be saying this but yoga is changing my life. In someways, I think its saving it. I've always have a interest in yoga. Every once in a while I would try it. Stick with it for like a week and drop it shortly after. A few months ago, I made yet another attempt at practicing yoga. I invested in a good mat and a free week trail of yoga. Now I find myself in yoga teacher training. I find myself breathing and sweating through poses I never thought I would be doing. I found that the most unexpected people have been the more influential in my practice. At first my practice was a purely physical practice. I did it because I found I started sleeping again, eating better, having more energy and over all pain relief. Then out of nowhere, I started feeling more emotional and seeing others in a new light. I've never really had a hard time loving other people. Where I've truly struggled is loving myself. Through my training, I see myself differently. Its still a work in progress and probably always will be. I have a new found love and appreciation for my body. The way I think about myself and my body has changed. With those thoughts, my body has followed.
My body is strong.
My body is full of beauty.
My body is free pain.
My body is imperfect.
My body is energetic.
My body is to be respected.
My body is sacred.
My body is full of love.
My body is healthy.
These are all things I probably would have felt like a fool saying before... but you know what, I don't. These are all things we should tell ourselves.
I'm learning to let go of my need to make other people happy. I need to focus my energy on my happiness and in turn, I'll better serve others. I've let go of relationships that do nothing but hurt and suck me in to their sadness. Its hard but I deserve better. Sometime people just need to be in their sadness, alone. I want to surround myself with people who don't have walls of judgement surrounding them. I want to be around people who work just as hard at their own happiness as I do my own. I want to be surrounded by people who smile with their eyes.
... and I really want to stop face planting in crow!
